Are we Not the Chosen Ones?

It awes me to know it's that time of the year. But don't get me wrong, I love this time of the year as it always gives me the opportunity to reflect and refresh. Honestly, who hasn't been through a frenetic year? 

Like many of us, too much had happened this year (and the last couple of years), and I found it challenging to make time and unwind my unorganised thoughts and feelings. Does anyone feel this too? The world keeps on turning, even when your world is going through the craziest earthquake. The seashore waves are ongoing, even if the previous waves wiggle your balance, even if you find it hard to stand steady. From both an optimistic and less-optimistic point of view, life must go on and you just gotta pick yourself up. What it meant by optimistic, is that you CHOOSE to pick yourself up, because tomorrow may be a brighter day. Lesser optimistic wise, you just HAVE to pick yourself up because the daily task, the chore and everything else are always moving forward. Because the greater world won't wait for you to pick up the pace, it won't sympathise with your situation, because it's a cruel world in a sense. Unless you want everything to fall behind even further, you can only choose to gather yourself. 

To me, it feels grounded to connect with my inner-self. In recent days, I'm finally on vacation and can organise the yet-to-organised. I especially cherish the moments when we, the team TLW, can share with each other the current situations we're facing. It feels amazing to free the long-compressed thoughts, personally, this is my process towards the ultimate sense of relief. And this time, we came to realise a guide, or perhaps a possible solution to many questions and uncertainties.

Looking back to the past, I've tried multiple years and ways to get into a career, one that I always thought I would end up there. After a few years of trials, I still couldn't get in. One day, my parents said, "How about you try another different path?". I evaluated the options and there was nothing to lose if I try. Then, I applied, and miraculously, after five days... I received an unconditional offer. Across the span, I've written some content inspired by this journey. There were a lot of worries and doubts, I did not know what I was doing and why I got in. And I even thought of quitting, literally immeasurable amount of times... 

Did I make a good decision, you ask? If we were to change the perspective, rather than to think I chose this path, maybe... I was chosen by this path, too. 

This point of view is intriguing. Come to think of it, from the surface level, we choose the school we want to study, but the underlying reason we get in is that the school agrees to the application and has offered us a place. Likewise, did we choose to live in an apartment, or did this landlord choose to welcome us, too? Did you choose to befriend a person, or were you chosen by them at the same time? It seems to apply to friendships, romantic relationships and more. It takes two to tango, right? Seems that everything that happens is never a one-way decision, but two-way. We are the ones who choose, but simultaneously we are the chosen ones. No matter how much you want something to happen, if it is not reciprocal, if either side does not want this to happen, it remains to be no mere than a wish. 

Now, let's sit back and use this mindset to view all the ups and downs in our life as a theatre audience. All the acts were specially written to mould the characters, it is meant to serve some sort of purpose. The purpose could be, to gain something, to feel something, or to learn something. 

In real life, we are the walking characters and - we just could not see why we were chosen for this act, yet. At some point, we may unearth the underlying reasons. Or perhaps, we will never see through why we were chosen to undergo all these. But do we always have to know exactly the "whys" every time? Or should we trust it's leading to something meaningful?

Things that happened are not solely some random coincidence. Not to complicate things, everything happens for a reason. One day, I came across a video that said: "The intensity of gravity is so precisely chosen for Earth, if it's slightly less the one we are experiencing, the Earth will collapse into a ball eventually; if it's slightly greater, we will be floating but not walking." Before people coin this force "gravity", it still exists, it always has. The degree of this force is so finely tuned for everything on it to happen, of which we are not consciously aware. 

There's always a force why we are more prone to selecting certain decisions. We just could not tell why our heart tells us certain things. There always is a force, even if we are not consciously aware. It might not be obvious until the answer reveals itself. If the answer hasn't revealed itself, wait! It's just not time yet. Like you're a storyteller, you might want to leave the revealing part exciting and empowering, at a time you think works best for character growth. 

When facing big decisions, there must come a lot of uncertainties and doubts. You might feel completely lost. But remember why you're here, (a) you chose this, (b) you're chosen for this. Even if you still don't consciously feel why you're chosen yet. Everything that happens involves at least some two-sided decisions, it happens because of certain explained or yet-to-explained forces. You don't have to regret choosing one over the other, because your heart and that special guiding light within are always inclined towards something meaningful, magical, something great. It always has, and it always will. 

Everything we experienced, was not pure coincidence, it was all meant for something. An invisible golden string, an unknown magical force led us to now. And everything that we are about to experience, is, likewise, made for something fascinating. 

Wholeheartedly, 

The Lights Within